New beginnings.......

Today is a day of new beginnings. Everyday is , actually. As a couple Shane and I have struggles and challenges as I am sure most couples do, but because of our Savior and because we try as often as we can to go before Him in prayer we are making it. To be specifically general :) we have made some decisions that were totally and completely about us and what we "thought" we wanted. Materially, spiritually, and otherwise. And we have finally realized that doing that doesn't work. It may for a while, and you feel good for a brief period, but that fades too. You go buy that new car, you think, "this is it, this is what I have wanted since I started driving, for so long- this will fill that void, that hole I'm trying to fill." But we didn't get it. We said we were "saved" and claimed to follow Gods plan- but we were lying to ourselves. Following Him means dying to yourself everyday. Not becoming something you aren't or losing yourself and becoming empty-or some cultish mumbo jumbo- but giving up the need to control your feelings and be on that "high". By no means does that mean we are perfect or that we have it all figured out, but each day is a new beginning....a chance to fill that hole with His love, knowledge and friendship. Thank you God, for my family, friends, and our children and especially for what you have taught us- how to truly start to live.